Good Night 0 1287

I haven't slept alone in five years. I haven't woken up to sunshine and alarms.

Today when I have no choice but to get in bed all by myself, it feels like I have taken birth out of romanticism and forced to cuddle nightmares. Is this what loneliness feels like? I have no answers but I think this is what it is, I feel so small and lost. What if the stories about bloody Mary and the three thieves are true? Nobody will find me tomorrow and I will turn into mystery. What about the secrets and stories I haven't told anyone, will they disappear with me? My best friend will never know the truth about her boyfriend, that is sad.

Now I do not have to choose any side of the bed, it is all mine but incomplete. I will have to force myself to sleep and dream deep about togetherness and love, something I just lost. Will I wake up tomorrow with a hangover? I might gulp down a few glasses of beer and sing sad songs, a new happy place. I will be tagged as a melancholic mess. Ugh! its so quiet! Is this what poets keep reciting? This is not beautiful, it's chaotic. I do not see the moon, where did she go?

Were the stars hung up there to make way for rockets and spaceships? Will one crash over tonight? I’ll be gone then, So I will have to start all over among aliens and dodge UFOs? Okay… I need to get some sleep before the moonlight man knocks my bedroom door. Is he already watching me? Does he know I am all by myself? I can’t do this! I can’t! Wait am I too loud? Did he hear me? let’s sing a song! Yes! Uhmm “I got a ticket for the long way round, two bottles whiskey for the way…” Haha I remember how I played the cup song in school and screwed up,he was watching me from the backstage. I walked out half way the performance and he ran after me to calm me down, I had butterflies in my stomach. We were highschool sweethearts. Wait why am I blushing over this? No, it’s over and I don’t want to remember these moments. I should burn down these memories soon. Fire! I think I need to check the iron box, I smell something. It smells weird, I don’t know. Okay let’s breathe, easy peasy.

I will keep the fairy lights turned on and light music playing, uhm Ed Sheeran? Adele? let Coldplay play. Did I just say “play” twice? Wow play, say, hey, may… May? So he’s not going to be there for my birthday this time, I think I will feel hollow. I already do. Shut up! I talk too much. I am on my bed, let me close my eyes, I see colors. No just black actually.

Has it been an hour already? Wait why is it dark? Where am I? Am I trapped in a dream?

Okay now it’s 3 AM, almost there. I want hot chocolate and cookies, my stomach’s growling. Midnight craving after all. So this is what sleeping alone feels like? I hate it. Guess I will never sleep at this rate. Let’s try the old way that my aunt taught me, I will count sheep. One sheep, two sheep, three sheep..

I stretch and rub my eyes, I finally saw the sunshine.

Written By
Manasvi Bendigeri

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A dream is truer than real life. 0 1648

My head was heavy and it was hurting like crazy. I woke up crying having no idea of what had just happened. I thought about my dream and began to recall each and every event.

So as I drifted off to my sleep an empty dark room began to appear. As I fell deeper into the dream the room became darker and darker and I couldn’t see anything. Suddenly I was stuck in an unknown place all alone where even though I screamed nobody responded and my voice just echoed back to me. I started to walk and I bumped into something. When I touched it, it felt like a chair. So I decided I’d sit down. As I sat down I fell.

I was falling. Tumbling. Dwindling.

God knows what was happening

I was falling through something which seemed like a never ending tunnel.

Gradually the tunnel ended and I fell right on my buttocks. As I looked around, I realized I couldn’t recognize the place.

I walked around trying to find out clues of where I was, but every road, every shop all of it was nameless. I ambled around aimlessly. Gradually I began to feel alone, a feeling which I never had. I was always surrounded by people and now I can’t seem to find a single human being. As time flew by I began to feel hungry so I entered a shop and I realized that the food was available at no cost. I love food and I ate until my stomach was about to explode.

I saw a beggar asking for food,and I could not help him. I felt bad but i also realized that even i don't have anything for myself. As I don't know what to do next, I just started a conversation with him.

I asked him, "Who are you,How did you come to this place?". With a smile, he replied "I was a business man, i had like 5 cars, 7 bikes, 0 friends. I had no one to help me when i was in crisis. My dream was vanished fully and i started roaming aimlessly and I'm here now."

I began to think about myself back at home and how I lived my life. I began to wonder as to why I was stuck in this weird unknown place. What is it that I did wrong and I deserved this punishment of being alone. I realised how big of a spoilt brat I was. I thought about how I didn’t value what I had and was given. I began to think about everything. My mind was running a marathon race but with no direction. It was going crazy. I felt like I was going to explode.

Poof I woke up

I sat down for a while and analysed my dream. I thought about what I was doing in my life and if it was the right way to lead my life.

Dreams are known to take place during the Rapid Eye Movement period also known as REM period. This period varies from person to person causing them to either remember or forget their dreams which is why you may come across some who claim to not dream. Dreams are always confusing. They always give us mixed feelings. Usually after my dreams I don’t remember the whole story just like this one but there is always something I learn out of them. Dreams give us all kinds of mixed feelings. Sometimes they are true and sometimes unrealistic. Usually dreams have a deeper meaning so let us analyse a few dreams.

1)Being trapped means you might need a change or a fresh approach to your life. Look for another job or think about going on a small holiday.

2)Teeth falling out is all about your power and usually means you’re feeling subconsciously repressed or controlled

3)Food items is all about knowledge and feeding your brain. It could also be just about the food items themselves, depending on how important food is to you as a person.

4)Falling is a dream symbol that means you’re thinking about letting go of something you’ve been holding onto for a while now.

5)Finding an empty room in a dream can mean you’re searching for something that you just can’t seem to find. It could be a new area of your life you want to explore.

There are many other such types. In addition to this it is always a good idea to revisit your dream.

Written By
Sriya Chatterjee

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